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so she is, i suppose
21 September 2009 @ 05:12 pm
i really hate getting sick while its still so hot. i would say " i hate getting sick in the summmer", but because i am in school, have started dance again, and work everyday again...its definitely NOT summer anymore. having so many things to do just makes it worse :/
anyway. school started again and i go everyday, which sucks. everyday i drive to school and then i drive to work, or the other way around. im tired already and it hasnt even been a month yet. on my busiest day i leave home at 7:45am and dont come back until 10:30pm, and i havent even started my internship yet! i get overwhelmed when i think about it, but im just trying not to. im also trying to focus on the fact that next semester will be easier AND i will finally graduate. FINALLY! something i never actually thought i would do. and then thats when it all starts. the whole growing up and living thing. do i go to grad school? do i lounge around for a while? do i go work in another country for a year? do i backpack around the world? there are so many things i want to do! and i feel like life is too short to do them all.
p.s. i really want to play the beatles rockband.
anyway. school started again and i go everyday, which sucks. everyday i drive to school and then i drive to work, or the other way around. im tired already and it hasnt even been a month yet. on my busiest day i leave home at 7:45am and dont come back until 10:30pm, and i havent even started my internship yet! i get overwhelmed when i think about it, but im just trying not to. im also trying to focus on the fact that next semester will be easier AND i will finally graduate. FINALLY! something i never actually thought i would do. and then thats when it all starts. the whole growing up and living thing. do i go to grad school? do i lounge around for a while? do i go work in another country for a year? do i backpack around the world? there are so many things i want to do! and i feel like life is too short to do them all.
p.s. i really want to play the beatles rockband.
01 August 2009 @ 11:47 am
neeeed to make these.
20 July 2009 @ 09:59 am
many times i ask myself "what was i thinking!?!?" and realize that i wasnt. i usually dont think, i usually just give into impulses and think about what ive done after its already happened. and usually when the same thing happens again, anyone else might not do the same stupid thing...but not me. i give in, i give in all the time. and i think its pretty ridiculous, but i also think its pretty funny.
03 June 2009 @ 10:27 am
1. carry bubbles with my everywhere. everything is better with bubbles floating around.
2. read at least 5 books. i miss reading for pleasure.
3. wear hawaiian tropic sunscreen just because i adore the smell.
4. carry balloons whenever i can. it will make me feel like im celebrating, as i should be.
5. go to the beach at least 7 times. i did not take advantage of the beach last summer.
6. go to santa cruz!
7. take more pictures.
8. play my keyboard more. my left hand is retarded and i need to work it out or else its going to stop functioning all together.
things i probably wont get around to doing, but in a dream world i would do:
buy a beach cruiser
buy an awesome camera
and even more unlikely
buying an xbox just so i can buy the new beatles rockband. i have never in my life wanted anything that has to do with a video game, but now...i do.
2. read at least 5 books. i miss reading for pleasure.
3. wear hawaiian tropic sunscreen just because i adore the smell.
4. carry balloons whenever i can. it will make me feel like im celebrating, as i should be.
5. go to the beach at least 7 times. i did not take advantage of the beach last summer.
6. go to santa cruz!
7. take more pictures.
8. play my keyboard more. my left hand is retarded and i need to work it out or else its going to stop functioning all together.
things i probably wont get around to doing, but in a dream world i would do:
buy a beach cruiser
buy an awesome camera
and even more unlikely
buying an xbox just so i can buy the new beatles rockband. i have never in my life wanted anything that has to do with a video game, but now...i do.
15 April 2009 @ 11:56 am
14 April 2009 @ 11:34 am
i tend to always expect the best out of people, even when they have let me down many times before. what is it? yearn for the best but expect the worst? something like that.
i always let my hope get the best of me, and i get let down a lot.
but i think life is better that way. always hoping.
its when you lose the hope and see that everyone is not as great as they seem, that things really start to suck.
i always let my hope get the best of me, and i get let down a lot.
but i think life is better that way. always hoping.
its when you lose the hope and see that everyone is not as great as they seem, that things really start to suck.
12 April 2009 @ 01:52 pm
im getting tipsy by myself on easter. its not even 2pm yet.
i dont know if this is funny to me, or if im pushing myself to see how far i will go without falling. i'll stick with laughing :D
roscoes here i come!
i dont know if this is funny to me, or if im pushing myself to see how far i will go without falling. i'll stick with laughing :D
roscoes here i come!
09 April 2009 @ 11:36 pm
Once upon a time... from Capucha on Vimeo.
this makes me want to learn french again, and teach it to kids.
08 April 2009 @ 08:00 am
23 March 2009 @ 08:44 pm
yesterday was a LONG day.
woke up at 5. ran out, in the rain, by 6. picked up nicole and viv. got to the studio by 645. our bus was pretty comfortable, until the defrost on the windows stopped working and the driver had to blast the ac to defrost them instead. then, we all kind of froze.
sea world was boring because it was raining pretty much the whole time we were there. but the actual competition was fun. there was this hip-hop team who performed a super mario themed routine, that was pretty awesome. we won a lot of first place trophies, and some second place. placing in competitions doesnt thrill me as much as it used to, i think its because i finally realized that trophies dont really matter at all.
when the competition ended we finally got a chance to walk around, and the sun came out. we walked back to our bus to put our stuff away, and by the time we did that we were already too tired to go see shamu or the dolphins or ride any rides or pretty much do anything. instead, we sat in a cafeteria chatting about weaves and ridiculous prom pictures and crazy customers. i almost fell asleep at the table.
i finally got home around 11. i tried to find parking for a while, until i gave up and parked in the red because i had too much shit to carry and didnt want to walk 2 blocks alone.
today, i got a letter in the mail from school. in it, was my score for my GWE, and i totally passed :)
i was actually surprised because i was honestly doubting i would get a good score on that test. i didnt go to any of the workshops and i ended up having to write an essay about rule breaking in education and economic sytems or something. pretty much, i had no idea what i was writing and i thought i was going to end up wasting 40 dollars. but, i actually passed! which im excited about because now i can skip the upper division writing courses and save time and money. thank god.
i got out of class early tonight, so now i can go to bed sooner than i thought. i woke up to go to school early this morning, and then decided i was way too tired to go, and couldnt go back to sleep afterwards. typical.
woke up at 5. ran out, in the rain, by 6. picked up nicole and viv. got to the studio by 645. our bus was pretty comfortable, until the defrost on the windows stopped working and the driver had to blast the ac to defrost them instead. then, we all kind of froze.
sea world was boring because it was raining pretty much the whole time we were there. but the actual competition was fun. there was this hip-hop team who performed a super mario themed routine, that was pretty awesome. we won a lot of first place trophies, and some second place. placing in competitions doesnt thrill me as much as it used to, i think its because i finally realized that trophies dont really matter at all.
when the competition ended we finally got a chance to walk around, and the sun came out. we walked back to our bus to put our stuff away, and by the time we did that we were already too tired to go see shamu or the dolphins or ride any rides or pretty much do anything. instead, we sat in a cafeteria chatting about weaves and ridiculous prom pictures and crazy customers. i almost fell asleep at the table.
i finally got home around 11. i tried to find parking for a while, until i gave up and parked in the red because i had too much shit to carry and didnt want to walk 2 blocks alone.
today, i got a letter in the mail from school. in it, was my score for my GWE, and i totally passed :)
i was actually surprised because i was honestly doubting i would get a good score on that test. i didnt go to any of the workshops and i ended up having to write an essay about rule breaking in education and economic sytems or something. pretty much, i had no idea what i was writing and i thought i was going to end up wasting 40 dollars. but, i actually passed! which im excited about because now i can skip the upper division writing courses and save time and money. thank god.
i got out of class early tonight, so now i can go to bed sooner than i thought. i woke up to go to school early this morning, and then decided i was way too tired to go, and couldnt go back to sleep afterwards. typical.
24 February 2009 @ 10:06 am
im home sick.
i hate being home sick.
although i know its the only way to get better, i cant help but feel extremely unproductive and lazy by staying inside and resting. and i guess i should start taking more care of myself since i have a show in a week. right now, my heart goes crazy when i get up from sitting...so im guessing thats not a great thing.
life has been crazy lately. work. 18 units at school. interning at 7th street in a class of 7 autistic boys. rehearsal for 10+ hours a week. it sucks because im always tired and i dont get to hang out with anyone besides hector since he doesnt mind coming over and watching tv while i lay there in a coma. or maybe he does? hmm...
i finally finished all of my math classes. i ended up taking stats over winter break and getting an A, which is AWESOME since i had tried taking it 3 times before and had to drop since i was failing. since ive transfered,ive only gotten one B and it makes me feel kind of accomplished and gives me hope that maybe i didnt fry all of my brain cells. just looking at my transcripts lets me see how much time i was wasting before, how ridiculous my life was, and how much of a loser i let myself become. ugh.
anyway. time to go back to relaxing, or resting, or whatever it is that people are supposed to do when theyre sick.
i hate being home sick.
although i know its the only way to get better, i cant help but feel extremely unproductive and lazy by staying inside and resting. and i guess i should start taking more care of myself since i have a show in a week. right now, my heart goes crazy when i get up from sitting...so im guessing thats not a great thing.
life has been crazy lately. work. 18 units at school. interning at 7th street in a class of 7 autistic boys. rehearsal for 10+ hours a week. it sucks because im always tired and i dont get to hang out with anyone besides hector since he doesnt mind coming over and watching tv while i lay there in a coma. or maybe he does? hmm...
i finally finished all of my math classes. i ended up taking stats over winter break and getting an A, which is AWESOME since i had tried taking it 3 times before and had to drop since i was failing. since ive transfered,ive only gotten one B and it makes me feel kind of accomplished and gives me hope that maybe i didnt fry all of my brain cells. just looking at my transcripts lets me see how much time i was wasting before, how ridiculous my life was, and how much of a loser i let myself become. ugh.
anyway. time to go back to relaxing, or resting, or whatever it is that people are supposed to do when theyre sick.
23 November 2008 @ 12:42 pm
01 September 2008 @ 10:21 pm
so im back from NY, and i want to head on back across the US already. here i feel like im walking too slow, and i cant cross the street when there arent any cars coming because a cop will probably give me a fucking ticket. anyway, i had an amazing time and my feet are still not well rested from the brisk walking i did for like 10 hours daily over there. we did almost everything we set out to do...now the next time, id like to go and see what its like to RELAX in NY. that is something i have never done. next winter? next thanksgiving? next new years? next spring break? i'll be back you loud city, dont you worry.
anyway. i watched gossip girl and now i can finally start my normal life. i got my mom addicted and i guess thatll be our new show. GG stays GG. that show is just too much, and i love it.
and! i start school again tomorrow. and i go back to work at soleado and i get to see all the kids i missed all summer. actually, i only missed a few. and now im going to miss the ones from summer camp that i wont get to see until next summer! :( im so glad i dont start practice again until next week...lets me ease into my routine.
10 August 2008 @ 11:26 am
ive had a really chill summer.
nothing crazy, at all. work. trip up north. lots of reading (for pleasure), which is something i forgot i enjoyed so much. and pretty much just lounging around and hanging out.
i feel like im actually healthy now. which should be something pretty normal, but for me it actually feels like an accomplishment. im hoping the feeling lasts.
i dont really think i have anything to complain about anymore. i feel pretty happy. weird huh? i guess the only thing i wish, is that certain people were closer. or that i had more time in a day to do everything i wanted. you know, if i was a vampire and didnt have to sleep, id be able to accomplish so much more! but, since im not...i end up falling asleep at 10:30 on weekends and waking up at 2am, laughing that i slept through and entire saturday night, and getting into bed. which would have pissed me off a few years ago, but doesnt really bother me anymore.
im now looking forward to:
-san francisco this weekend
-new york in 2 weeks
-school
-dance
wooopdidoo
nothing crazy, at all. work. trip up north. lots of reading (for pleasure), which is something i forgot i enjoyed so much. and pretty much just lounging around and hanging out.
i feel like im actually healthy now. which should be something pretty normal, but for me it actually feels like an accomplishment. im hoping the feeling lasts.
i dont really think i have anything to complain about anymore. i feel pretty happy. weird huh? i guess the only thing i wish, is that certain people were closer. or that i had more time in a day to do everything i wanted. you know, if i was a vampire and didnt have to sleep, id be able to accomplish so much more! but, since im not...i end up falling asleep at 10:30 on weekends and waking up at 2am, laughing that i slept through and entire saturday night, and getting into bed. which would have pissed me off a few years ago, but doesnt really bother me anymore.
im now looking forward to:
-san francisco this weekend
-new york in 2 weeks
-school
-dance
wooopdidoo
29 July 2008 @ 12:51 pm
why hello there tectonic plates, i almost forgot you were real.
jeez. now lets hope that it doesnt get any worse, yeah?
5.8 is alright by me.
jeez. now lets hope that it doesnt get any worse, yeah?
5.8 is alright by me.